Alhamdulillah I have so much to be grateful for. I am really happy, not excited ecstatic happy but true inner happy. Life in this dunya will never be perfect, we will never have it all, i dont have it all, however i can truly say that i am happy. Alhamdulillah!
my PGCE which should be renamed slavedriving nightmare is over. And now i can enjoy my life which is truly wonderful, sharier has made me happier than i could have ever imagined. Only i know how truly lucky i am to have found him. I spend my days playing with Alisha and lookin after my ayaan. I actually get to have conversations with my family instead of rushin to my room to do lesson plannin. I know longer hate my self for over eating and gettin fat, im on a healthy diet and exercising, inshAllah i can keep it up.
I still get bogged down wiht details sometimes ofcusing on thing sthat go wrong, but its difficult to remain cross or upset by anything when so much is goin well by the blessings of Allah.
So often i use this space to complain and talk about how miserable i am, so its only fair that i use it at times when i am truly blessed as well.
I pray that everyone may feel this way.
There really were times hwen i thought that i was jsut a miserable person. Asking my slef why i couldnt just be happy, i got scared that i would always find something to be unhappy about, but mashAllah i know now i was wrong.
Who knows where life will lead me, all i know is rihgt now i have so much to be grateful for, so much to thank Allah for.
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